I'm not doing a lot of gaming these days. I've canceled Open Quest more than I've run it.
I like buying gaming books. I like buying them a lot.
I sort of like reading them.
I like world/setting building.
I don't like prepping for game sessions.
I don't really like running game sessions anymore.
I'm at this really weird spot. I like the *idea* of gaming, I just don't seem to actually like *doing* it anymore.
I've been playing the remaster of the Bard's Tale trilogy, and I find that in my head, I have backstories, and even personalities, for the characters in my party. There is absolutely no rp in BT. It's a dungeon/city crawl, with the second and third titles adding wilderness. Your characters never talk and have no personalities, yet I imagine it as a sort of campaign in my own head. The issue with that is that I'm in a space where I vastly prefer to play fake campaigns in my head than to deal with human beings, even friends.
I still co-sponsor the board game club at this school, but I'm basically just an adult body in the room so that they can have a club. Some of the kids still ask me to roll out 5e for them, but after the last session... I'd rather put all of my dice in a blender and drink the resulting container of plastic shrapnel than DM for them again. I am trying to gently persuade one of them to become DM. (There was a girl who was DMing, but she moved away at the end of the previous semester.)
Not really sure where to go from here. Ostensibly, I like rpgs, I just don't...like, *actually* like them anymore, when it's time for the plastic to hit the table. (Or, more accurately, for the prompt to hit the Discord dice bot...)
Oh, I still need to go through that manuscript for JB. I fully intend to do so, since I still like reading gaming shit, even if I don't really enjoy participation anymore.